Hello! Umm...hello?

OK, before you say anything, I know it's been a long time. A really, really long time. I don't know what you expect me to say, but I've had other shit on my mind lately. The truth is, I should have been blogging all along. The reason I quit was because someone that I didn't really want to read my blog stumbled across it "by accident" and humiliated me over it. It was wrong, and overall, I would say detrimental to my well being. I've said it before, and I'll say it again. Even though I'm writing for an audience of one, myself, the fact that it is public for anyone else to see makes this therapeutic. I think maybe it's because when I'm writing for everyone(and no one), I'm not trying to fool myself. My agenda changes from focusing on the way something feels, to describing what that something is, and that often leads to me feeling a different way about it. For that reason, there are a lot of drafts that I will probably never post, because I can't write more than a couple of paragraphs before my whole perspective on that subject goes through some kind of shift and I'd have to start over for it to make any kind of sense. Does that make any sense? Oh well, who cares. I've wasted a lot of time lately.
I'd say a lot has changed since I last talked to ya, but in truth, I have no idea. A lot has happened, but whether any of it is significant or not will have to be the subject of another post. I don't even know if I have what it takes anymore. What if all my future posts come out as incoherent rants about some minor event in my life? I guess then I would know that nothing much has changed within me. I don't know if that's a good thing or not. I'll have to re-read my old posts and get back to you on that one. On second though, that sounds horrifying. I seem to recall some rather sophomoric posts about my political views and some acidic diatribes about my past. The past couple of years have mellowed me out a little. Or have they? How the fuck should I know. That's why I'm here. This is my chance at rediscovery, I suppose. Hope you like it. If you don't, suck my balls.